Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Santa, r u playing tricks on me this yr?

Santa, r u playing tricks on me this yr?

Xmas is finally here. I'm working at Lego this xmas season. nope. Not Popular anymore. hehe. Nope. its an intern. not a part time job. Yes, its only paying me $500 bucks! pathetic right....well, its better than popular in the un-monetary sense i guess.lala. wonder wat Santa claus has planned out for me this yr. Been through almost "devastation" with my results, "floating" moments with my loved ones and some "special" or rather awakward moments....hmm...nope....mayb jus been thru sthing i nv been thru. really wanna question santa claus:" Santa claus, r u playing tricks on me this yr?"

I really wonder. Its been weird. Its been a little sweet. it has also made me a little messed up. Made me realised things that i nv did realised. Maybe made me see a little bit more of the world. or a little bit more abt myself. It almost made me freaked out n ran far far away. But there's really no point in giving hope for it. definitely. I'm sorry. Cos i noe giving it hope is even more torturous for it instead. Am i right, santa?But thanks. thanks for making me realised sthing i nv did realise. Santa claus, r u trying to hint me? If u r, I caught it. hehe.

Do things which have been going long have to necessarily go mundane, boring and monotonous? Hmm...i myself doesnt think so. My belief is it doesnt has to be. I always believe, if one has the energy, the passion and the ethusiasum, it will continue on.......but if one jus keeps it mundane it defn will. I'm so scared. I'm so scared things will go mundane and more mundane, more n more mundane..........until........the thing lost its sparkle it had on it always. The sparkle that has always kept it going. Would santa pls keep it going for me?Please.

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Friday, December 09, 2005

November, the month of my bday

cut cake! see.this cake can eat one. cut cut cut.
thanks gazbo-oers. *muacks*

yippe. my 21st bday cake.

FINALLY! i got a CAKE! a decent one. thankew gazebo-oers! had it during our midnight movie marathon. thanks for the jacket N the surprise too kh! thanks huh*the eye*

nvm. we got to eat some goood foood.yipppeee!my 21st bday pst exam celebration at suntec w kk. thanks! *muacks*

n omg, its a pacifier keychain from kk. *faint*

ok, amongst all the complaints, i got 1st 21st bday gift.hehe. eh, a smmal n tiny mick mouse 3D jigsaw.

see clearly!!!it is really 101% roti prata, yes, its made of flour but its not cake at all. see? not candle to blow oso. only got curry to eat with. soooo pathetic.

guess wat. its my 21st bday. 29 nov. n it falls on my exam week!!! not my 1st bday (of cos nt), not my 5th, not my 10th, not my 2oth bday BUT my 21st bday!!!how could it be. n here i am, eating my 21st bday supper. my"cake" is roti prata bought by kk. SEE?nt even a cake for me.=(

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Thursday, December 08, 2005

November, the month of bdays

November, a time of special occasions. a time to celebrate bdays. bdays of my beloved ones including myself! kk, mummy & me! and not to forgot other frens too. HAPPY BDAY EVERYONE!

dear's 21st bday, 7 nov. 22 days earlier than me. (hey, so wat, big meh?=P) celebrate at Maestro cafe.see! i got an expensive cake for him!with an ice cream oso lor. so nice of me.lalala~

that's his 21st bday present! special ba.hehe cross stitch which is half done.lala~ eh, its hard n time consuming work k.

my family foto. long time nv take a family pic together le. this is a nice one=) hope we can spend abit more time together..

mummy's bday!28 nov. celebrate at home as usual with a chessssecake.

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Thursday, December 01, 2005

Friends~

Friends. Too many classifications. Not that i do intentionally classify them but they do jus fall into the "classifier" naturally. Those that .... make me tok with my heart. make me tok with extreme ease. make me tongue tied. make me tink hard to find suitable topics to tok. hi-bye frens. make me jump at seeing them. dun say hi-bye frens.hateful ones. lovable ones. hard to communicate. easily agigtated. fun loving. understands me well. doesnt understand me at all. have similar interests and taste. have totally different interests n tastes. And the list goes on....

True friends are indeed rare n really specially. Personally, i believe such friends may not go through thick n thin with u (too lao tao), rather i feel they are people that u get heaved up with, angered, argued, maybe fought before but still, end up still really gd frens. cos it jus shows how strong that friendship is. To gain back the trust, to see each other's true n extreme feelings and to forgive. It's hard. Tat's y its rare n special.